I am so at peace right now with life. I am so blessed to have a good man in Trey and two precious boys that just melt me. I have been kinda down today with a lot of random worries I can't seem...won't shake because of my need for control. So today on my way home from work I just turned off the radio and rode home in silence and talked to my Jesus.
You know he tells us to just talk to him as a friend and the more I am in God's word the more I am amazed that that simple task is EXACTLY what he meant. I rode home today just discussing random things over with my Best Friend, Jesus. It was a great way to unload all the stuff that seems to occupy the space in me and keep me from being filled with God's love. I think that conversation prepared my heart for the sweetness in our home tonight.
When we got home today it was later than normal so EVERYONE was hungry, and I mean EVERYONE. So needless to say Jackson and Coleman got something to eat and I turned the oven on....just to preheat for an hour! This moment of chaos led to some very sweet and fun moments with Coleman. For whatever reason Coleman was hammin' it up tonight. Just laughing and having the best time. It is so fun to see the fun side of him. He is my little serious man and tonight he cut loose! It was great. I love seeing him laugh with his two bottom teeth and two upper teeth barely showing but catching the light when he rares back to laugh. It was great and all over the Turkey and Rice Dinner. Still don't really know what was so funny but it was fabulous just to laugh with him and enjoy that baby smile, laughter and innocence.
At bath and bed time he was sweet as pie and so excited. He is so much like his big brother loving the water and naked time! Awww, they start their manliness so young. Coleman just talked and gave sweet kisses before bed. He melted me. You might think that I am crazy for posting about these moments with Coleman but I am so in awe of how God takes care of all our worries even the kind of crazy ones. See, I have been feeling closer to Jackson lately because we seem to have more conversations and more communication. This has led me to have tremendous guilt and worry that I was not being the same mom to Coleman. So, God showed me tonight it is the season and their will be times when I feel closer to Coleman than Jackson. It doesn't mean that I love them any less or that I favor one over the other. It just simply means that I am enjoying the season and special time I have with them and having time to savor the moment with each one.
So on to Part II of the story. Jackson, my Backyardigan lovin' 2 1/2 year old! Jackson loves Backyardigans and especially Pablo. He talks to them when they are on and he knows them all by name and he even tells them by when they are going into their homes at the end of the show for a snack. Tonight as I was about to do some cleaning he said "MOM, come sit in the red chair." So I stopped what I was about to do right then and just went and hung out with my big boy Jackson. It was so special. He helped me eat my dinner when it was done heating up and then just sat in my lap and watched his favorite TV show and talked to me about it. It was great. I love those moments when he just wants to spend time with me. And even though he is wearing us out right now because he is up every minute or two for some random reason. He is still precious and I just see God when I look at him.
God has blessed me more than I can ever even fathom and I fail so miserably everyday striving to be more like him. He just keeps on keeping on track with me and leading me in the directions I need to go...even if I take rabbit trails. God is good and learning to have a relationship with him is by far the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Well, this post ended up not fully being what I intended but it was an attempt to put into words the awesomeness of God and how he loves us each and takes time to listen and show us in the smallest ways if we are listening and attentive to what he is trying to say to us.
You know he tells us to just talk to him as a friend and the more I am in God's word the more I am amazed that that simple task is EXACTLY what he meant. I rode home today just discussing random things over with my Best Friend, Jesus. It was a great way to unload all the stuff that seems to occupy the space in me and keep me from being filled with God's love. I think that conversation prepared my heart for the sweetness in our home tonight.
When we got home today it was later than normal so EVERYONE was hungry, and I mean EVERYONE. So needless to say Jackson and Coleman got something to eat and I turned the oven on....just to preheat for an hour! This moment of chaos led to some very sweet and fun moments with Coleman. For whatever reason Coleman was hammin' it up tonight. Just laughing and having the best time. It is so fun to see the fun side of him. He is my little serious man and tonight he cut loose! It was great. I love seeing him laugh with his two bottom teeth and two upper teeth barely showing but catching the light when he rares back to laugh. It was great and all over the Turkey and Rice Dinner. Still don't really know what was so funny but it was fabulous just to laugh with him and enjoy that baby smile, laughter and innocence.
At bath and bed time he was sweet as pie and so excited. He is so much like his big brother loving the water and naked time! Awww, they start their manliness so young. Coleman just talked and gave sweet kisses before bed. He melted me. You might think that I am crazy for posting about these moments with Coleman but I am so in awe of how God takes care of all our worries even the kind of crazy ones. See, I have been feeling closer to Jackson lately because we seem to have more conversations and more communication. This has led me to have tremendous guilt and worry that I was not being the same mom to Coleman. So, God showed me tonight it is the season and their will be times when I feel closer to Coleman than Jackson. It doesn't mean that I love them any less or that I favor one over the other. It just simply means that I am enjoying the season and special time I have with them and having time to savor the moment with each one.
So on to Part II of the story. Jackson, my Backyardigan lovin' 2 1/2 year old! Jackson loves Backyardigans and especially Pablo. He talks to them when they are on and he knows them all by name and he even tells them by when they are going into their homes at the end of the show for a snack. Tonight as I was about to do some cleaning he said "MOM, come sit in the red chair." So I stopped what I was about to do right then and just went and hung out with my big boy Jackson. It was so special. He helped me eat my dinner when it was done heating up and then just sat in my lap and watched his favorite TV show and talked to me about it. It was great. I love those moments when he just wants to spend time with me. And even though he is wearing us out right now because he is up every minute or two for some random reason. He is still precious and I just see God when I look at him.
God has blessed me more than I can ever even fathom and I fail so miserably everyday striving to be more like him. He just keeps on keeping on track with me and leading me in the directions I need to go...even if I take rabbit trails. God is good and learning to have a relationship with him is by far the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Well, this post ended up not fully being what I intended but it was an attempt to put into words the awesomeness of God and how he loves us each and takes time to listen and show us in the smallest ways if we are listening and attentive to what he is trying to say to us.
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