Blissful Chaos

Tonight Coleman woke up hungry something that rarely happens but something I enjoy when it does. Coleman is not a cuddler at all but when you give him a bottle during his sleep time. He will cuddle a moment with me. So tonight as I kissed and stared in awe at my precious baby I realized his first year of life has almost past us by. He will be one in less than a month! I know it is normal not to get as much time with the second as the first but I didn't realize just how fast the first year would pass me by. I sit writing through tears because tonight I realized I no longer have a baby, but a toddler. It hit me when I took a deep breath to smell that sweet smell of a baby and it was gone. Motherhood is so bittersweet. No one can prepare you for the split your heart feels at times like these. I am so anxious and excited to see him take steps by himself and sad when I realize that those sweet sounds and smells are gone that only come with the presence of a new baby in your home. Oh how...

Can I start of today with a big shot of GLORY! God is so Good! I don't know why I am so amazed other than I don't completely get it all the time and it takes little things like this to remind me how faithful and good our God is. As some of you know I am memorizing verses to keep my focus on God. I started this challenge with my mother-in-law, Sheree, and it has been an eye opener over and over again to me. First I found that God is leading me to verses about a certain theme and for some reason they are easier to memorize because they are hitting me where I am. Imagine, God knowing where I am and what I need! (Another simple concept that leaves me speechless when I get it.) I digress. So, I have been trucking along memorizing verses and my seventh one came out with what I thought was a different theme. I had understood that the verses up until this point were about changing my focus from worldly possessions and money to focusing on God. Then I felt led for verse 7 to ...