Blissful Chaos

I recently finished the Kay Arthur bible study on Covenant. It was a life changer! I don't say that lightly. It was the second bible study that I walked away from with a big life change. First, was "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore. It was the bible study that God used to draw me back to him and turn my hurt and anger into a passion to draw closer to God and to find my way here on earth through him. Now 9 years later I have completed the Covenant study and I am learning what freedom in Christ is and not worrying about the do's and don'ts. I get so wrapped up in what I think should be done and whether I have measured up to the standard of family and friends that I stay bogged down in what I perceive as failure. When all along I should have been praying on a daily basis to submit to what God wants me to do and how he wants me to walk through the day. I will be honest at first I thought this was going to be an easier way to live.....not so much! The first few da...

Wow! I got some perspective today. I was looking in my bible for some notes and I ran across the first page in the bible where the person giving you the bible signs it. Well, obviously I knew who signed it and at one point I had looked up the verse they had written down. However, many years and two children later I had forgotten. So today I see it look it up and I am blown away. Not only by the words of the verse but the depth to which they reach in my heart! The verse was Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart." Fifteen words that gave me hope then and bring tears of joy and so much more than I can say almost 8 years later. What a savior we have! He can take someone like me who was so angry and rebellious toward him and show me his mercy, grace and compassion. He can take me with all my scars and a broken heart and bless me with a man that loves me for who I really am...the true me that few know. That he can make m...