Update on my Grandmother and other things on my mind
Well first and foremost let me say that I am very thankful that I got to go to Florence and spend some time with my Grandmother. She was out of it most of the time I was there but I at least got to tell her how much I love her and how I am okay. She woke up last Thursday morning like she had just been in a long sleep. I hate seeing her with no quality of life. She was so fiesty and stong it is hard to see her so weak and out of it. Speaking of weak it reminds me of something she said when I was growing up. Sitting on her porch one day we were talking and she lived on Weekly street and I mentioned something about her address and she said she would never have lived on Weekly street if it had been spelled Weakly. She thought that would have been a cursed street. I thought that was the craziest thing I had ever heard but now it is fond memory of one of our many conversations. Isn't that funny how a word can trigger a memory of a whole conversation. Thanks for letting me indulge myself in my memories for a minute.
On to other things. Like the phrase I hear 24/7 these days....Mommy do it! I love it because Jackson loves me that much but sometimes part of me wishes he wanted Daddy to do something occasionally. I guess that is horrible for me to say but sometimes I just need a few minutes alone with Coleman or to just sit down and do a chore that has been bypassed too many times due to lack of time in the day or just being too tired after a very long day. Oh well, these days will pass all too quickly and I don't want to waste too many of those moments with my boys when one day they will be independent and not wanting to depend on me for anything. Being a mother is the most bittersweet journey I have ever been on. It is a bag of emotions everyday. You see your babies growing and striving and you are so happy and then you realize that another week has past and then another month and before you blink a year. I never dreamed life could pass by so fast. We need to take advantage of every moment we have with our families and cherish them.
This brings me to another thought on my mind. The state of the society we live in. Now I know things will never get back to the way they were back in the 1930's, 1940's or even the 1950's but something about these eras make me think that a simpler life based around God, family and good friends and neighbors would be so much better than the way we live now. Rushed; Stressed; Knee deep in debt; I could go on but it depresses me. Call me old fashion but I like the styles back then, the way men were real men and the way women were graceful and elegant and they didn't have to prove themselves out in a man's world. They were happy to be a wife and mom. Not that there is anything wrong with working. Heck I do and right now I think that is were God needs me to be....because I know the desire of my heart right now is to be home and just be a wife and mom and wrap myself up in just being my role model....June Cleaver! LOL! Laugh all you want I know it sounds crazy but I want to be June Cleaver cleaning in heels and wearing my pearls and apron! While on this subject lets talk about the clothes. I love them. I am watching Peyton's Place right now and I am thinking about how much I love the dresses and shoes they wear in this movie. So classy. I hope one day we totally get back to that style!
Now for an update on my baby boy, Coleman. He is just a joy in every way these days. He is such a happy baby he just brings a smile to my face every time I look at him. I think he is going to be mr independent! He already at 4 1/2 months wants to do things his way. He has gotten to the point where he doesn't want to cuddle up and rock before bed. He just wants to be laid down and left alone to go to bed. It breaks my heart that he doesn't want to cuddle but that is okay. It is just his way. It makes those moments where he does want to cuddle even that more special. Coleman has started eating solids and it is an experience. He seems very picky in what he likes and doesn't like! He also has started spreading out the times he eats so we are definitely in an adjstment period. I never thought the second baby would be so very different from the the first year with Jackson.
Well it is getting late for me since I have been up since five this morning. I want to get some budgeting done and work on some other little projects before bed. Hope this finds all you well and happy. Thanks for taking the time to check in. Sorry this post is all over the place and rambling. Hopefully the next one will be better thought out!
Love ya,
Jennifer
On to other things. Like the phrase I hear 24/7 these days....Mommy do it! I love it because Jackson loves me that much but sometimes part of me wishes he wanted Daddy to do something occasionally. I guess that is horrible for me to say but sometimes I just need a few minutes alone with Coleman or to just sit down and do a chore that has been bypassed too many times due to lack of time in the day or just being too tired after a very long day. Oh well, these days will pass all too quickly and I don't want to waste too many of those moments with my boys when one day they will be independent and not wanting to depend on me for anything. Being a mother is the most bittersweet journey I have ever been on. It is a bag of emotions everyday. You see your babies growing and striving and you are so happy and then you realize that another week has past and then another month and before you blink a year. I never dreamed life could pass by so fast. We need to take advantage of every moment we have with our families and cherish them.
This brings me to another thought on my mind. The state of the society we live in. Now I know things will never get back to the way they were back in the 1930's, 1940's or even the 1950's but something about these eras make me think that a simpler life based around God, family and good friends and neighbors would be so much better than the way we live now. Rushed; Stressed; Knee deep in debt; I could go on but it depresses me. Call me old fashion but I like the styles back then, the way men were real men and the way women were graceful and elegant and they didn't have to prove themselves out in a man's world. They were happy to be a wife and mom. Not that there is anything wrong with working. Heck I do and right now I think that is were God needs me to be....because I know the desire of my heart right now is to be home and just be a wife and mom and wrap myself up in just being my role model....June Cleaver! LOL! Laugh all you want I know it sounds crazy but I want to be June Cleaver cleaning in heels and wearing my pearls and apron! While on this subject lets talk about the clothes. I love them. I am watching Peyton's Place right now and I am thinking about how much I love the dresses and shoes they wear in this movie. So classy. I hope one day we totally get back to that style!
Now for an update on my baby boy, Coleman. He is just a joy in every way these days. He is such a happy baby he just brings a smile to my face every time I look at him. I think he is going to be mr independent! He already at 4 1/2 months wants to do things his way. He has gotten to the point where he doesn't want to cuddle up and rock before bed. He just wants to be laid down and left alone to go to bed. It breaks my heart that he doesn't want to cuddle but that is okay. It is just his way. It makes those moments where he does want to cuddle even that more special. Coleman has started eating solids and it is an experience. He seems very picky in what he likes and doesn't like! He also has started spreading out the times he eats so we are definitely in an adjstment period. I never thought the second baby would be so very different from the the first year with Jackson.
Well it is getting late for me since I have been up since five this morning. I want to get some budgeting done and work on some other little projects before bed. Hope this finds all you well and happy. Thanks for taking the time to check in. Sorry this post is all over the place and rambling. Hopefully the next one will be better thought out!
Love ya,
Jennifer
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